I myself have suffered from panic attacks and anxiety attack over a decade. I have experience all sorts of negative thoughts and scary sensation. I have experience all sorts of anxious sensation in my body that you possible think of(pounding heart, increased breathing ,freaking out, excess nervous energy, muscles tension, sweating, dizziness, digestion problem, excess worry).
The most frightening experience I have ever encountered in my life to a date. Never thought would able to overcome this monster inside me. The tug of war inside me I wanted to get rid of so bad. I would do anything to live my life normal again. Harder I tried to fight this demon more stronger it gets. Everything around me used to make me anxious and scared. The whole world feels like a burning hell (if it exist). I just felt my whole life is doomed in this hell. I come to this point to end my life because I couldn’t take in anymore. The expertise couldn’t help me I just felt hopeless. I thought ending my life would be the end of this pain and suffering. I really couldn’t take it anymore. I promise myself to give one chance to live my life to heal myself before end my life. The very moment took a matter in my own hand in the desperation to cure my myself to live a normal life. I read books ,watched videos and listened to podcasts related to mental wellbeing. I did collect as much information as possibly I could. I searched everywhere outside the whole world but the answer was inside me which i could have never imagined. The solution to my problem, the cure to my disease was yet so simple but quite difficult to implicate in reality. I am only the one who could heal myself. I was the cure to my pain and suffering. when I come to realize the thing I hated the most need a affection of love with compassion, the scary monster was my best dearest friend. My mantra” OH MY DEAREST FRIEND PANIC ATTACK ,COME INTO MY HEART, COME INTO MY SOUL, I TRUELY ACCEPT THE WAY YOU ARE WHAT YOU ARE.THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAVE DONE IN MY LIFE MY DAREST FRIEND PANIC ATTACK. AMEN AMEN” . This is my healing mantra. The pure acceptance of those feeling and thoughts without any judgement is my enlighten.
yes, the journey wasn’t easy but was very rewarding at the end. I never thought could overcome but here I am proud. It took patience ,courage, determination at the end I DID IT. I am so damn proud of my self for not giving up on my life when I feel hopeless. This is the very moment to dig up you hells and move forward no matter what. which make me realize I am more than I am. This whole experience has made me the person who I am today bring the best out of me. I truly believe if I have able to overcome this pain and suffering, now I feel like can achieve anything in life. The greatest victory of your life is to overcome those fear that frighten you the most. If you are reading I truly believe you can overcome too it’s matter of fact how bad do you want to overcome and life your life to the fullest. The question is do you really believe in yourself?